November 12, 2005

thank goodness.

I got the neighbour to move her radio so it's not blaring right out the window and into my apartment. She turned it up to its usual volume, and I went back home and listened, and am still listening. Can't hear a thing. Hopefully this solves the problem. Contrary to popular belief, I really don't want to be a hag about a situation unless I have to. Luckily, here, I didn't have to.

Does anybody else ever have the experience that the longer they're on antidepressants, the more depressed they get? Or is it just me? Or is it winter coming? Or hormones? They are going to take blood Monday and test my thyroid and testosterone and LSH and whatnot. Maybe they'll find out why the hell my hair is falling out. Sometimes when I feel it, it almost seems thinner on top. Maybe I'm getting male pattern baldness. Great, I'll be slathering minoxidil on my scalp for the rest of my life.

Maybe I just have cancer and nobody's caught it or something. My lymph nodes do hurt a lot. Or maybe I just have a really bad somatoform disorder, and the therapist and I just have to root out whatever psychological issue is causing it.

I just feel like everything is grey.


Posted by Frida Peeple at November 12, 2005 10:11 AM