Either this antidepressant is not working, or school really sucks.
Considering that my personality is still different from before the drug, and that my blood pressure has gone from slightly too high to low enough to make me dizzy [which usually happens with me and SSRI's], I'm gonna go with school sucks.
I'm really not comfortable with the idea of working full-time [plus overtime, spank you very much] while paying somebody money to take up another 15 hours of my life every week so I can eventually...uh, work someplace else, maybe. I'm no sucker, I can read a classified section. I don't give a shit what Monster.com says. There's no fucking jobs out there unless you're a nurse or a trucker. Shit, if there WERE any jobs, I could be making nearly twice what I am now at the same job I'm already doing without additional schooling. I can see why what I'm doing is completely retarded and pointless, and everybody else thinks it's just the greatest thing, that I'm finally doing something with my life. No I'm not, you goddamn dimbulbs. I'm just spending upwards of $15K so I can look like I'm doing something and keep you nagging cunts off my ass. I know the government's never gonna hire me with a damn associate's degree. I have never seen a job anywhere in human services where they asked for anything less than a bachelor's. I'm just wasting my money and running myself into the ground.
If my counselor could read this, she'd surely find about fifteen irrational thoughts in it. The one she can't counter, though, is that I can't get the job I want with the degree I'm working for. Nobody anywhere wants somebody with an associates' degree.
Prepare for College-Induced Nervous Breakdown 2.0.
And I can't believe nobody wrote to me about the Iraq thing. Come on, there has to be somebody out there who disagrees and thinks Bush is doing the right thing and this is all honourable and shit. No? ~shrug~ Suit yourselves. I thought maybe having a new troll to ban from my e-mail would lift my spirits.
Piss on it. I gotta go to the sulphurous pits of hell work.
same bitch time, same bitch channel...
Posted by Frida Peeple at September 27, 2005 08:31 PM